Something's Coming...

[Insert "Something's Coming" music from West Side Story here]

For a while now, I've sort of been feeling like "something great is coming," but I didn't know what that something was.

Today has been really, really interesting. This whole weekend, actually. I've been bursting at the seams with happiness and good emotion. I feel like I've been really close to the Spirit. I feel like I reached some sort of spiritual goal or place that I've been working toward for a while, but I'm not exactly sure where "there" is. It feels really good, though, and it's very exciting. I'm not sure what I've been working toward, though I *do* know that I've been actively working toward *something*....and I've kind of reached it, but I don't know how...maybe by faith...? and I don't know what "it" is, but I'm there, so I'll just kind of run with it. I'm happy, and it feels magnificent and encouraging and enlightening and happy and I know that things are on the path that Heavenly Father wants them to be, and that they will continue to do that.

Maybe that's what "it" is. Maybe I've really just gained a testimony of the fact that God really is in charge, and that He is aware of me and of my situations, if I will but trust Him that He knows what is best for me much more than I could possibly know for myself. I hope this feeling lasts a while, because I love it, and I hope that I eventually get to figure out where I've arrived. I feel like I've been given some strong hints, but I tend to second guess myself. I'm just trying to let go and let God take over.

Wow. I wish I could share this feeling.


eleka nahmen said...

As I have realized in the past week that I am both a Classical Liberal as well as a non-denominational agnostic, it actually does follow that I am usually very pleased for people when they find god in their lives.

Thus, I am glad for you :) Moments of enlightenment like that are rare and precious indeed, as they will shape and define who we are.

ambrosia ananas said...

I'm glad for you, dear.