Happy Time

Well, the senior recital is over, and I have six weeks left of school this semester, and I'm very happy about this. In six weeks, I will graduate and be a free woman! I still have two papers to write, a midterm to listen to, finals to take and opera week to survive, but then I'll be DONE!

This semester, my goal has been to pass my classes. I don't need As. 'Cs get degrees,' right? Yes. They do.

The question I'm being asked the most frequently is, "So. What do you want to do after you graduate?" My answer: SOMETHING that is in no way related to my major. I understand that this is not a common answer. I'm okay with that. I've spent so much time working on the subject and being a student that I'm ready to drop them for now and try new things. A lot of people seem to dread going into the work force, but I'm really looking forward to it. I'm excited about benefits and more money. Hopefully I'll be able to not be bored to tears, too.


As of today...

...the singers *still* drive me crazy!!



What is going on??

I had a very strange day yesterday. I haven't quite processed what's been going on. I've been becoming more and more outspoken, and I find that I like it! Knowing that I have to be more accountable about what I say can be a little scary, but I found it nice to actually say what I think. It was fun, and such a relief! I'm confused, though, because that's not normally who I am. I've historically been the one to go with the flow, do what I'm told, not make waves, etc. All of a sudden, I can't seem to keep my mouth shut about what I think, especially in response to professors and coworkers. The other strange thing is that people are actually taking me seriously and valuing my opinions. This also (and granted, this is just my perception, and is thus a jaded view of reality) is strange. I'm used to being the good little obedient green in the corner, but maybe orange isn't as bad as I thought.

Am I actually changing colors, or what's going on here???

I think that my new favorite movie...

...is Meet the Robinsons.

I love that movie! I like things that encourage kids to be smart, and that movie has so many other things that are great fun.

I think my favorite line, though, is from the T-Rex (as per the mumbling and subtitles): "Well, I have a big head and small arms. I'm just not sure how well this plan was thought through. Master?"



Feeling Out of Place

I don't know where I fit in right now. It's becoming increasingly clearer that school needs to be over as quickly as possible. I don't feel like I fit in Academia anymore (even though I need to finish off the semester and not botch anything), but I don't feel like I'm ready for the having kids and being a mom thing.

(I know that there will be full-time work happening that is not related to my major, which will be a good thing. Preferably 8-5, five days a week, not retail, and not being bored to death.)

Ideas, anyone?


Dear Self,

Remember when you told yourself NOT to read the blogs of friends who have children?

Yup. Lots of them JUST had babies. Since you're still freaking out quite a bit about the prospect, it would be a Really Good Idea not to read them. It will help you to Keep Moving Forward with the semester, which is where you need to be focusing.


Your Self