Weird Space

So I'm in a weird space. One of my roommates just got married, and two more have guys that they could *very* well end up marrying. It's bordering on disgusting, but not in an "Ick, they're being physical" way. Their happiness/giddiness/whatever is annoying and gross.

As far as Salt Lake goes, I'm not attracted to any of the guys up here that I know, and it seems like the ones I meet are stupid, immature, completely different, obnoxious, obsessed with making out/being physical, scared of girls, or [insert negative quality here]. I'm not attracted to the guys that I "should" be attracted to. That's weird. It's a new thing for me. I usually have at least one guy that I have a crush on.

As for the Provo scene...gas is too expensive for me to date someone who lives down there. I don't have the cash for it, and I don't want to make some poor guy spend that kind of money (unless he really wants to!..:D ) just to be able to see me more than once a week.

I like being by myself and must have alone time to be happy, but only to a point. I have a pretty good idea of what I want, but I'm not sure that the straight version exists in Utah. I'd like to go spend time in England or Spain or New York or Boston or California or somewhere outside of Utah or the podunk states, but I know that I'm supposed to stay at the U to major in music. It's rather frustrating, but what can I do?

I'm also rather tired of being attacked for the things that I value. I have weird tastes! So deal with it! If you think I'm weird, go away.


ambrosia ananas said...

Sometimes I don't think I believe in love. Sometimes I think I should move far away. Sometimes it all seems stupid.

Congratulations to your roommates. Condolances to you. And we should play soon. :)

morningglow said...

Study abroad in London! Seriously! We had UVSC and even an Arizona State girl in our BYU program. Do the theatre program and VISIT SCOTLAND. You won't regret it :)

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Anonymous said...

That's how I went to London. It was great, because we got to be immersed in the culture and really try something new. I HIGHLY recommend it. You can live with locals or with other people coming there from other countries. You can either get a job before you go or do a temp. agency after you get there.

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Cinderella said...

Yeah, Emily showed me that site. It looks awesome, but I just bought a car. I don't think I can afford to go out there, sadly. We'll have to see when the time comes.

You guys are so awesome for posting on my blog. It makes me feel loved.